Im so passed blogging

I get it, it doesn't work....Nothing I do or say on this website will ever really sway anyones convictions. This wont make you a better person....this wont help you really act differently. Im not trying to control you, thats not me nudging you, its something else. Its the holy spirit...working in you, working in me, seriously, stop being the person you don't want to be...just stop....stop. Skip the cliches, i will, cliches are for movies and are unprovocative. provocative enough to stand the test of time however not provocative enough for people to do anything other than just repeat them over and over. I have always kept this website raw, unspellchecked, and unedited cause thats life. Raw emotion. One person once told me that they could picture me saying all these words, like i was directly talking to them just becuase of how raw I was, how straight from the heart I came. They could just picture me droping this....close your eyes....can you see it? I've done a lot of stuff that I'm not proud of in my life but one thing i can say that i tried to do is influence others to do good, do good with what you have been blessed with. The most mondane shit is a blessing to those who would die for it. Do something original , be bold, whats your gift to the world, honestly? Cause you haven't shown me anything. Im one person, insignificant in so many ways, with faith that God has a plan for me...that me, as insignificant as I am....I'm a spark....This blog is a spark...was always meant to be a spark...for the smallest of sparks can create the greatest of flames. That is motivation....that is inspiration...that is why i did this for years...I was hoping to be a spark that would ignite others to change, to do good, to think for yourself, to do what was right...not right for you....but right in the eyes of God...the God who has stood by you even when you rebeled against him. Sorry too deep...well...there is always non-reality. Im keeping this short, I've already said goodbye once so the 2nd time wouldn't be so hard. Seriously, people need you....if you feel you have no place in the world....people need you...you are so important. Shit i mean join the peace corp. Your life has no meaning...imagine someone who is fighting for a life that at best will have no meaning....and you are their only hope...yet you just flip the channel and think that you would rather spend 80 cents a day on insert material item that someone in some foreign country will die over the fact that you would rather have it then save then......welcome back the holy spirit ....it never left you. It was there all along...to convict you of your sins. To inspire. I can only hope to be a spark...to the flame that burns inside you....to what you know is right. As an RA at Umass amherst I focused a lot on community support, whether it was support for friends or support for those in need. The greatest gift you have to give to another person is your love. For all my friends, former residents, people who read this blog....help those in need, not because you have to but because you want to, not because i ask you to but because God asks you to, not because you are established but because you are humbled. And truly I too may be humbled by your efforts as i was knowing that others carried on in traditions that I started at Umass in my dormitory in order to benefit others. It had nothing to do with me and i take no credit, dont remember the spark, remember the flame it ignited. I'll say it again....and I will leave you with this....Don't remember the spark...remember the flame that it ignighted.

I want to leave you with a quote from the bible that may suprise some people...i just hope that as obscure as this quote is, it will give you the faith that truly those who seek forgiveness are saved. I hope you like this one. I mean it. Jesus is for the sinners of the world. Just like you and me. And he has never left my side.

Matthew 21:31 . . . Jesus said to them, ‘I tell you the truth, the tax collectors and the prostitutes are entering the kingdom of God ahead of you. (32) For John came to you to show you the way of righteousness, and you did not believe him, but the tax collectors and the prostitutes did. And even after you saw this, you did not repent and believe him.

7320 people have viewed this page since it started....thank you...I mean it

May you find it in yourself to ask for forgiveness and accept the lord as your savior. God Bless you all...Thanks for the memories...and lets all keep each other in our prayers.