A Lesson Before Dying

Look suicide is no laughing matter, no matter what other websites say. I decided to put together a list of things to do if you really think that your life is meaningless. I know that this entry is really deep and is about a really touchy subject. Its not like i dont know what im getting myself into with this one. But when have i ever held back what i felt. If you guessed never...you win. Anyways i decided that i would put together a list of things that i want people to do before they have thoughts about ending their lives. Follow me with this one. You will see where this is going at the end. I have lost friends to suicide, its no fun, no laughing matter, no picnic, and still hurts. Maybe i should have wrote this earlier. So all of you who have given up hope, who feel like you are worth more dead than alive, for all of you who feel meaningless and unloved....this one is for you. Look if you are reading this it means that you believe in me and im the type to believe in you so this is what i am proposing to you and to others who just can't handle the curveballs that life is throwing them. If you think i started this blog to make fun of nascar and people with pink shirts you are gravely mistaken....i wrote this to change people, to defer people from themselves and their actions. Im not perfect nor do i claim to be however i'll get to the point soon. I want you to realize how precious life is, how precious your life is and the opportunity you are turning up. Here is a list of things to do before you decide to end it.

-spend a day in a children's hospital brightening kids days up, no matter how few days they may have left.
-leave roses and a flag on a vetrans grave acknowleging the service they made for their country.
-Tell someone you love them...and mean it.
-Put your feelings on paper for all to see
-Hold a newborn infant in your arms
-Sell everything you own and give it to charity. If you are willing to give up your body, you should be willing to give up your possesions.
-Spend your holidays with those who do not have family or food.
-Give a homeless person your jacket if they are cold, no questions asked, just smile and know that you are blessed.
-Walk an old lady across the street
-Watch a children's Christmas play no matter how many times the cows fight with Jesus...haha
-Drop your wallet in the salvation army collection pot on your way out of the mall
-Sit down and think sad thoughts till you cry, then think happy thoughts till you cry even harder
-Learn astronomy till the point where science can no longer explain the heavens
-Love someone more than you love yourself
-Mentor a child
-Save a puppy from being put down
-Attend an Easter Day Church Service
-Live unselfishly, if you feel like you have nothing left, then give everything till your last breath to someone esle
-Teach a child about hope
-Start an afterschool program
-Give blood till the point where you pass out
-Ask God forgiveness for your sins, you aren't perfect, be he never held this against you
-Hug your mother goodbye and cry in her arms like you wish you could bring yourself to do again
-Pray for your enemies
-Apologize to everyone that you have hurt in your life
-Be the change you want to see in the world
-watch a sunrise, then a sunset
-cry in your best friends arms
-cry in a strangers arms
-join the peace corps and help those not as fortunate as you
-start a food drive and feed the children who's stomachs are bloated yet haven't eaten in days
-make an effort to stop a war that you don't belive in
-cry when you write a blog that you wish everyone felt the same way about.


All im saying is that if you do this....all of this. I promise you that you have lived a more impressive life than anyone i know. You will truly realize how precious your life is... how great your gift is. Other people need your gift. If you are willing just to fold on this opportunity, you are killing others who wish they had the chance at whatever you neglect. I hope you all see this. Its not what you feel you are worth.......It's what you are worth to others. Believe me, your soul is worth more than all the riches this world has to offer. Give till you can't give no more, then die knowing that god has no more tasks for you. That has always been my philosphy.
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